hello there friends, strangers, and people who came across this post only to find out it was written by ME. don't let my childish behavior fool you, I'm wise, happy, and au fond a confident human being.
I've recently come to the conclusion that i am, generally speaking, a very happy person. I'm full of laughs that hurt so much i almost wet myself and smiles that make my cheeks sore every day!!!!
Did you know that happiness is a choice? yes... A CHOICE.
I've met so many people in the short amount of life I've lived who think that the reason I'm so happy all the time is because nothing bad has ever happened to me (which isn't true if you didn't catch on where this was going.)
I have a lot to be grateful for and i'm really good at expressing myself when it comes to things I'm proud of, like family, friends and my own accomplishments.
the one thing i don't love is
whenever i feel emptiness and loneliness creeping up on me, I wonder if it's okay to feel this way? I'm a happy person, so why am I sad? am I bummed out? depressed? Is it possible to feel so alone and desolate? to be honest, I still don't know how to answer these questions and i'll probably feel just fine in a couple of hours, like I usually do. maybe i'm not the only person in the world to feel this, so if you're looking for advice.. you probably won't find it here.
this is the part of the post where I tell you that no matter what you should always keep your chin up and to stay strong, but life is messy and sometimes a bitch, so feel whatever you have to feel in order to get through the day and be okay. what I will tell you is that everyone is going to feel a little miserable for reasons that we'll never be able to come to terms with and if we spent our time painting smiles and pretending like everything is alright- we'd never grow up and we'd never make mistakes.
I read somewhere that life isn't a 1960's sitcom, so remember that.
