Good morning, afternoon, or goodnight. Wherever you are in the world and whatever time of the day you happen to be reading this at, I hope you know that you are wonderful and I thank you completely for taking the time to hear me out. it's been a minute since I tried to do this the last time, but I'm back and I'm excited to make this a regular thing. Here a some small facts about me to get started:
- my name is Arleen, 21
- I love all things makeup
- I love all things science
Obviously you won't figure me out entirely in this post, but I hope you'll stick around to get to know me as I learn new things about myself. I'm most excited about what this new chapter of my life will consist of and I can't wait to share it with all of you. :)
I’ve been thinking thinking thinking. I feel deeply that I’m going through a shift, a personal change that has been building up to this very moment. It’s weird, but it’s as if a wave came over me and I no longer have access to my former self. In the attempt to recover, I’m left only with picking up the pieces and figuring out who that person was, and how to reconstruct a better version of myself. On an isolated mindset, you’re constantly going against projections of who people think you are while also trying to figure out who you actually are. These projections rear their ugly heads in all aspects of life here. I’ve found myself looking outward in hopes to see myself peering back through someone else’s art. This week, the author Louise L Hay in How You Can Heal Your Life, articulated how I’ve always felt about process of self acceptance. The bits and pieces were read over and over again. It’s all I can do until I can find a better way to articulate whatever this moment in my life is. Yeah, I have a flare for the dramatic while being completely shy all at the same time, but it feels particularly important, as though I’m on the edge of something great or something horrible—no middle ground. And whenever I slip too deep into the blues that comes with being me. I find some form of upliftment in the work I see online, in cinemas, in books... but also within my friends and loved ones. Then, I’m reminded that everything will be fine and that in the end, I’ll come out of all this a badder bitch. So here's to a better me, and a better life, and new adventures. Thank you.
All love, Arleen
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